ObNOXioUs LoVEr

sitting on the bench outside
not minding the cold pouring rain
regretting people's talking about
it's just that i am hiding.


i am hidingg that i am falling
i am falling apart
pretty sure that you're happy
happy to break me
you're breaking
you're breaking me free


though there's been a hell of a lot of water
under both our bridges,
still it is tempting to think we can
start up where we left off.


it isn't that i am begging
just love me back
if you only knew how myself
hurt thinking of you.


once you saw me happy,
i consent my self to be,
secretly i am tenaciously unhappy.


if you think i haven't get over to the
pain you've caused, think not
i do believe everything happens for a reason
it's that were not meant to be
i'm not yours and you're not mine.


here outside sitting on the bench very cold,
still holding on that maybe
someone will give something
will make me warm




expecting.

LiKE a KNiFE

I dream a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.javascript:void(0)
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.
Cause if I watch you go,
You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasting away

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words they have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me,
Or watch me bleed,
I need you just to breathe.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
(Stay with me, or watch me bleed)
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe.)
I'm not living this life

"OPPorTuNiST"

i never tried to talk to you about what is true.
that i did not love you for so long, sorry is what can i say.
thanks for the good memories we shared but i am thankful because you're gone

i pretended that i care about you but deep inside i think someone
you ask me what's wrong i said nothing and i kissed you so you won't bother.
there was no hint of pretension from me in front of you but then at your back i'm guilty.
no matter how devoted you are to our relationship still i felt nothing but pretended to be.

you are now on your own, i know it is hard for you i am just thinking for both of us. even for myself- i too struggled on how to stop this stupidity for i know it will pain a lot. i hope you understand what i am trying to imply- we are destined to be on other's hand. i wish i did not tell you I LOVE YOU for i know we'll be WORLD APART.